Guide the Car, You`ve got the Keys
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Regret.
Handball in the morning.
Had to play in the futsal knn.
Shin made me her all time demonstrator hehe.
Cut the bull:
1) skipped the god damn museum trip
2) had a rough session of trying to place the balls at the back of the net
3) gave up shooting on my own
4) gym
5) emo at same dusty corner of the school
6) lunch
7) joined the class for pw, helped with von's group
8) Touch with navbaby
9) watched half an episode of friends with sha
10) cont and finished improving slides
11) Fifa '09 with Gs
(haha, he's the best, even bought me bready early in the morning even when he's broke)
12) played in j1 guys vs teachers match
13) cwp for bubbletea with aneesh/navbaby
14) Fishtalk all the way to dover
15) dinner with mummy
16) home sweet (lovemybigbed) home
Today's worst.
The feeling of running and running in a cross-country,
when you're up and away from the damn forest of mcritchie.
You keep running, thoughts of giving up come by once in a while.
But you keep running. Only to see bus stop after bus stop.
You race towards your finishing line and can finally stop and feel good.
I felt today that, she was my finishing line. That i just want to run back into her arms and finally this torment can end.
But wait, she's gone.
There's no finishing line..
This torment won't ever end. She's not coming home anymore.
I'm still in this leg-race dying.
This is exactly the wtf moments i have that leave me dropping to the ground, this is the tearjerker realisations, the surges of pain, the voices in my head, the hallucinations.
Everyday.
Then the fishy and trackmate tic decided on this.
Run for the glory of crescent track, run for the people at the sidelines cheering for me.
Choose a different route, hence a new finishing line.
Well 5) made me realise that Faith is about trusting, placing bets on (feelings included) something/someone with no guarantee/assurance and believing in that something/someone whom you have completely no idea of.
It's the sorrys i cannot say.
It's the babys i cannot call.
It's the hugs i cannot give.
It's the regret i'm living with.
It's the images that i see.
It's the voices that i hear.
It's the memories that i'm living in.
And the future that i ain't entering.
"I can't imagine what its like and i am not going to pretend i know how you feel but i need you
So please stay alive and be the yunheng you are not the yunhengwhojleftbehind
You are the result of your thoughts
So stop thinking you're all those bad stuff, you are more than that and you know it.
Don't be a prisoner of your heart anymore.
I mean, the only person who can truly make you happy is you(NOT EVEN THE OLD J)
So why are you not even trying?
I really care about you and maybe you don't care about that but it really hurts me to see you like this
I wish you could see yourself as i see you
I wish you'd love yourself like i love you."
This is really sweet.
I keep asking myself, is this it is this really it do we have to fucking URGH.
Because there's no turning back and,
)':
Had to play in the futsal knn.
Shin made me her all time demonstrator hehe.
Cut the bull:
1) skipped the god damn museum trip
2) had a rough session of trying to place the balls at the back of the net
3) gave up shooting on my own
4) gym
5) emo at same dusty corner of the school
6) lunch
7) joined the class for pw, helped with von's group
8) Touch with navbaby
9) watched half an episode of friends with sha
10) cont and finished improving slides
11) Fifa '09 with Gs
(haha, he's the best, even bought me bready early in the morning even when he's broke)
12) played in j1 guys vs teachers match
13) cwp for bubbletea with aneesh/navbaby
14) Fishtalk all the way to dover
15) dinner with mummy
16) home sweet (lovemybigbed) home
Today's worst.
The feeling of running and running in a cross-country,
when you're up and away from the damn forest of mcritchie.
You keep running, thoughts of giving up come by once in a while.
But you keep running. Only to see bus stop after bus stop.
You race towards your finishing line and can finally stop and feel good.
I felt today that, she was my finishing line. That i just want to run back into her arms and finally this torment can end.
But wait, she's gone.
There's no finishing line..
This torment won't ever end. She's not coming home anymore.
I'm still in this leg-race dying.
This is exactly the wtf moments i have that leave me dropping to the ground, this is the tearjerker realisations, the surges of pain, the voices in my head, the hallucinations.
Everyday.
Then the fishy and trackmate tic decided on this.
Run for the glory of crescent track, run for the people at the sidelines cheering for me.
Choose a different route, hence a new finishing line.
Well 5) made me realise that Faith is about trusting, placing bets on (feelings included) something/someone with no guarantee/assurance and believing in that something/someone whom you have completely no idea of.
It's the sorrys i cannot say.
It's the babys i cannot call.
It's the hugs i cannot give.
It's the regret i'm living with.
It's the images that i see.
It's the voices that i hear.
It's the memories that i'm living in.
And the future that i ain't entering.
"I can't imagine what its like and i am not going to pretend i know how you feel but i need you
So please stay alive and be the yunheng you are not the yunhengwhojleftbehind
You are the result of your thoughts
So stop thinking you're all those bad stuff, you are more than that and you know it.
Don't be a prisoner of your heart anymore.
I mean, the only person who can truly make you happy is you(NOT EVEN THE OLD J)
So why are you not even trying?
I really care about you and maybe you don't care about that but it really hurts me to see you like this
I wish you could see yourself as i see you
I wish you'd love yourself like i love you."
This is really sweet.
I keep asking myself, is this it is this really it do we have to fucking URGH.
Because there's no turning back and,
)':
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