Guide the Car, You`ve got the Keys

Now I`m in second place, to get a second chance.


How to start this post?

Cold war with my mum again.
Frankly, I`m jaded.
Every little thing that we`ve nt settled from before accumulates with each passing day.
FYI, i do not attain happiness from this at all.
I may nt have grown up according to plan.
I ain`t the sweet little girl that every Daddy would love to pamper.
No i`m not and i`m only proud to be me.
I`m sorry for nt turning out the way you want me to?
I`m sorry i don`t do the dishes.
I`m sorry i don`t know how to iron.
I`m sorry i can`t operate the washing machine.
I`m sorry i can`t make you smile the way they can.
I`m sorry for the fact that i can almost picture you heave a sigh when you look at my baby pictures.


Haven`t i tried?
Haven`t you come to realise that I`m trying.
Cleaned up my act.
Stopped staying out, stopped clubbing, stopped getting into fights, haha, fuck.
I`m not trying to prove myself, i just need, maybe a little bit of recognition from you.
I`ve already gotten myself into a JC.
Yes i could`ve done better but from 46 points to 13 points, you could at least tell me you`re satisfied, Mum.


Well, Gotta tell myself that it`s alright.
There`re definately kids out there who are in a situation worse off than mine.
Pick myself up and carry on with life.
I miss my Daddy haven`t seen him for quite a long time.
Come home soon we could have breakfast together.
(Even though it hurts to have a conversation with you because at times like this you might give yourself away about how much you know about me.)


Thanks for bearing with me.
I`m done with the tears and going back to reality.
Btw, this might be random but treasure what you have.
As much as i want my past to fuse with my present,
i should stop dwelling on it and..
(Let`s) Embrace the future with much anticipation, hoho.


Come on and bring me down.
I`m doing this alone.


Ps ; I apologise for the plain, disgusting, usage of the English Language.